YTuesday, September 05, 2006
dejected.. dampen.. despondent..
woke up with a clear and unobstructed voice.. was amazed at that.. still, i started with some vocal warm ups.. practiced my song before a couple of workouts.. "this must be the day i have been waiting for.." i thought to myself.. just to find out that i was wrong all these while later in the day..
i was appalled, astounded, dazed, flabbergasted, horror- struck, shocked, stunned and taken aback that i did not made it through the audition today.. i could not believe my eyes and ears when the "judges" struck the bell.. at that instant, diffidence, discomfiture, insecurity and mortification grabbed onto my ankles.. i wanted to hide somewhere for the time- being.. i feel really awful and terrible that i disappointed my friends.. they queued with me for a total of nine hours.. the whole experience felt like a dream.. i am depressed..
went chuch for prayer meeting after the "dream", felt God's tangible presence and love.. i could feel His peace and love filling me..
whenever i meet with discomfort or sad issues in life.. God never fails to comfort and see me through those difficult moments.. it is in Him that i find strength to continue my race.. it is in Him that i find the motivation to spur myself on.. each time i fall, i know i can count on Him to make me a comeback.. His love just amazes me..
-superstar matt-
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