YSunday, September 24, 2006
a short while..
was not feeling well today, perhaps it is the aftermath of the games at sentosa yesterday.. had butterflies in my stomach.. the airy, anxious and empty stomach was protesting fiercely and sternly..
did not really enjoyed fellowship, there was not a "proper" conversation no matter how hard i tried.. (of course, i do not mean everyone..) i just feel upset..
i gave it all out at the gym.. a good way to relief stress and to tone the body.. but i felt it was not enough..
as i was on the treadmill, i over- looked the crowds on the streets.. with the sun shining in on me through the clearly- furnished glass, the air- conditioner blowing above on the ceiling.. many thoughts ran through my vulnerable and weak mind at that moment.. many upsetting moments in life actually come and generate from people.. mankind, filled with cunning ideas, disorganisation, schemes, warped and weird mentality, uncertainty, is but an unknown mystery to me.. one can never fully comprehend nor understand people completely inside- out.. no matter how much we claim to have known or studied about humankind, one simply cannot figure out the mindset of another exactly..
as the sun set.. i paced up and down the warm street of orchard filled with unfamiliar faces.. got my thoughts cluttered and messed up.. not knowing which path to take.. wanted to get some light snacks from C K Tangs.. wanted to go Wisma to take a look at the shoe shop, Pedro.. as this is the last day of their 40% store- wide sale.. but did not went either place in the end.. i went Hereen to check out the condition of my top.. it has been a week yet it is not ready.. well, i need some more patience.. or rather, they need to be more efficient!
i really feel like shutting down.. and to cut off from this fed- up world.. at least for a short while.. it may do me good..
dinner at grandmother's place marked the fulfillment of today..
-superstar matt-
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