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irksome..
for the first time, i skipped accounts tutorial!.. i just didn't feel like attending!.. had about 45 minutes of break after my economics test.. the test was alright, i should be able to do well.. had another 1.5 hours of break before the accounts tutorial, thus decided to skip it after lunch..
went to the gym.. guess what happened?!?!.. i noticed someone peeping at me when i was showering after my workout!.. gosh!.. it's an middle- aged uncle!.. alright, whatever!.. a middle- aged uncle?.. uncles are old! (self- berating).. he was like peeping through the rather wide slit between the cubicle door and the other cubicle next to mine.. and man!.. he didn't go away after i stared at him through that same channel he was peeping via.. i couldn't hurry to wash out at all because i was scrubbing my pampered body and the strawberry polish was all over me!.. that "middle- aged uncle" had a free show!.. (enraged!) at that instant, i was wishing he had better get out of my sight when i am done showering.. well, the story continues.. saw the peeping tom when i was blowing my hair in front of the mirror.. i stared at him!.. yes, i wasn't friendly at all.. no reason for it anyway.. and while i was washing my hands off the sebastian clay, he came over and said "nice hair".. thus, the aloof superstar being polite, gave him a "fake smile"!.. alright, another contradiction here.. anyhow, it was a irksome experience!.. to think i had to encounter such an incident on the last day of the month..
but come to think of it, along this line.. guess i have quite a strong sex appeal.. (i believe so..) oh!.. it has got nothing to do with today's annoying experience!.. nothing at all!.. so, don't link them up!!!
went for dinner with my family.. we went changi village as my brother's camp is in the vicinity.. a great time of fellowship.. but can you imagine the journey there?.. oh, leg cramps!.. enjoyed my day out still..

-superstar matt-

Lee Matthew was here at 11:59:00 PM .

mouth- watering..
went to study at the gym today!.. with great up- beating and buoyant songs, drinks and good- looking people passing me by every other minute (not to mention the notes and books!).. it made my 3.5 hours well spent..
for about 15minutes, sitting opposite me was a guy probably below the age of 25- i guess he just signed up for membership today.. he took out a stack of 50 dollars notes!.. literally a stack of it, from his wallet!.. with my perfect and sharp eyesight, i noticed some thai baht beside that stack of 50 dollars notes.. and concluded that he must be some rich young man from thailand!.. i sat there astounded!.. amazed at the stack of money!.. but come to think of it, i can simply have that too.. it's a matter of time!..
wanted to attend the body compact session, but chickened out in the end.. went to do my sets instead.. i must go for it some day!..
my day ended with two huge bowls of sweet potato soup (it was great!)- my mom cooked a pot of it!.. and half a chicken which my sister bought.. the chicken was delicious and mouth- watering!.. it definitely was not oily!.. i can see that more than one method is being used to cook the chicken.. and the barbeque sauce was extremely unique and tasty.. it is different compared to other barbeque sauces!..
conquering the test of "study of how society chooses to allocate its scarce resources to the production of goods and sevices in order to satisfy unlimited wants" tomorrow!.. well, don't think too hard.. it's economics!..

-superstar matt-

Lee Matthew was here at 11:59:00 PM .

restrained..
the long- awaited time came.. took my marketing test today!.. it was alright on the whole.. although i know there are some wrong answers.. well, just don't tell me no one ever studies!.. alright, i am not that smart!.. a bimbotic superstar, remember?..
i could feel some "bitching" tension in the atmosphere the moment i step into the tutorial room.. most of us were rather solemn.. i was not in the mood for anything but the test!.. well, usually at this point in time, there will be some "smart- asses" who insist on breaking the perfect silence by creating jokes and going around making the rest feel uncertain and doubtful of themselves..
spent a day rushing almost everything!.. yes, even eating!.. anyway, started my diet plan today.. i need to lose some tummy which assembled itself recently.. this will mean lesser meals and more workout sessions for me..
went to the gym after my night class.. did not enjoyed myself!.. felt rather restrained today!.. ain't no reason..
while waiting for my bus at the bus- stop, i couldn't stop perspiring!.. ain't no reason!.. my nose was simply irritated by the dust and some filthy air over there.. everyone was practically looking at me with disbelieving eyes, which i never liked..
the up- coming tests are getting on my nerves!.. left with no choice but to conquer it!..

-superstar matt-

Lee Matthew was here at 11:59:00 PM .

dull..
the dull and deadly expressions of crowds affected my mood today.. woke up at 10.25a.m with such great expectancy that it is going to be a great day.. lecture at noon was pretty alright, learnt about "C+I+G+(X-M) = GDP =AE, calculate via the expenditure approach"..
i actually cancelled my dinner appointment with dric as i really needed to revise and focus on my studies- at least for now until my two weeks break in December.. and then everything starts all over again!- getting back into my books!.. as my last lesson for the day was about to end, my uncle called and asked me out for dinner together with some others.. i agreed!.. since we have not met up for a long time now.. but when i was walking to the train station, dric called!.. he wanted to meet me!.. i gave in!.. thus, i cancelled the dinner appointment with my uncle and the rest, so i can meet up with dric..
we went bugis!.. was trying not to be picky with food!.. well, someone said it was CHEAP food we had!.. (though not at me).. i felt offended at first (because i was the one who decided on the place to dine at).. but i allowed my heart to sink.. was disheartened..
went straight home.. was trying to study on the train.. but couldn't focus though i got a seat!.. it seems tough now.. without your hand holding onto mine.. i was just too tensed up about the test tomorrow!..
took a nap before studying again!.. did my statistics tutorial, leaving some questions undone.. a day engaged in books!..

-superstar matt-

Lee Matthew was here at 11:59:00 PM .

fatigued..
the superstar could not sleep well last night; being overly stressed out primarily regarding his up-coming tests and busy schedules to keep to.. and perhaps, one factor contributing to that was his mom revealing and calculating his financial status for him.. the tossing and turning on the bed lasted almost two hours before the star could catch some forty winks.. 6a.m marked the start of his busy schedule for the day!..
was supposed to work at 6p.m.. but the star was already worn out and strained enough by 4p.m.. thus, he cancelled the job schedule for the night..
an exhausting dinner with his buddy was great.. the star then proceeded to paragon to study!.. he fell asleep in the midst of it, but was quickly awaken and went back to the tedious and dreary books!..
the star then received a call from his besties to meet up.. he obligated!.. went for a quick bite.. chilled out till about 10p.m..
the pooped and fatigued star wants to sleep tonight..

-superstar matt-

Lee Matthew was here at 11:59:00 PM .

awful..
had diarrhea today.. ain't feeling well..
reached school at about 8.20a.m.. sat through the supposedly 2-hour tutorial with torment.. well, went for a super long break.. i wonder how that tutor of mine actually survive in school, with no one paying attention to him.. oh, he gets paid for that still!.. i cannot stand him anymore!.. i will soon die of boredom!.. yes, very soon!.. someone please replace him!..
was so eager to rush out of school today.. i was supposed to meet cas at 2p.m.. guess what?.. he reached only at 3p.m!.. i was left waiting!.. (who had the auducity to make the superstar wait?!..) anyway, went shopping at hereen!.. was so tempted to go paragon, but the heavy downpour had to dampen my spirits!.. i cannot walk over to paragon!..
met up with cas.. we went vila'ge for brunch!.. then simply stayed around orchard to shop and walk around.. it was a good time spent.. though we could have done something else..
i actually had an "invitation" to madam wong's re- opening tonight.. and was supposed to go because i gave my word.. but i was feeling rather tired, so i told my friend that i would give it a miss.. well, he made me feel extremely bad!.. yes, extremely, enormously and tremendously awful!.. it is not as if his friends will not be there or that he will die without me.. i just feel that i should not be "blamed" for not attending tonight's event.. don't sound as if it is all my fault!.. i mean, i do have a choice, right?.. be practical!.. get a life!..
don't stress me with the cares of this world!.. i need my private space!.. stop invading into my boundary!.. don't manipulate my steps!..

-superstar matt-

Lee Matthew was here at 11:59:00 PM .

surprised..
brought an umbrella out today!.. it was raining heavily.. but the umbrella didn't came into use.. everywhere is sheltered!.. anyway, went starbucks to study.. saw an extremely good- looking guy with his girlfriend at the next table.. they were so distracting!.. i couldn't focus for a while.. i was looking at them, with an expression that seems to be thinking hard..
went gym.. was surprised to see someone there.. we had a short chat though..
was looking for a place to dine in.. couldn't make up my mind.. the bimbotic superstar then ended up in orange julius after 45 minutes of strolling.. passed by calvin klein and saw the 30% sale sign.. my inner self begged to rushed in immediately!.. tried on so many tops.. at least 10, i guess.. but bought only one top!..
nice day out alone..

-superstar matt-

Lee Matthew was here at 11:59:00 PM .

love..
been pondering over some issues for a long time now, just that i ain't got the time to blog about it.. well, here it is!..
what love really is?.. can anyone define love?..
love ballets.. love poems.. love notes.. do they actually mean anything at the end of the day?.. i wonder..
those words promised never came true..
the time we spent seemed short.. yet meaningful and touching.. i will never want to forget all of that.. every moment, every clip of us together will always remain vivid in my mind.. as long as eternity can last..
do you feel the same way as i do?.. i questioned myself many times, knowing that i will never get the answer.. yes, i seem foolish now.. but ain't loving someone have got no reason?..
our conversation became shallow talks as time passed.. there is a breakdown between us all of a sudden.. perhaps it is all because of me.. i should never have stepped into your life in the first place..
there's something in the way you look at me..

-superstar matt-

Lee Matthew was here at 11:59:00 PM .

full..
had night class today.. nontheless, i went to the gym after that.. was rather happy after i checked my account balance.. finally i see some new figures.. i kept grinning to myself on my way to the gym.. did my sets religiously.. felt really good after working out..
wanted to have protein- eggs!.. thus went to "Xin Wang Hong Kong Cafe" at cineleisure.. i ordered so much!.. i had two soft- boiled eggs, a jam and peanut butter toast which looks gigantic for a toast, three shrimp "har gow" and a plate of black pepper chicken with spaghetti..
everyone at the cafe was looking at me with doubt.. my table was filled with food!.. well, i finished everything!.. loved it!.. bet the ladies at the cafe must be eyeing my secret of being so slim even after eating the whole table load of food.. jealousy!.. (muahahahaaa!)..
pleased on the physical (though it can be better).. but not the emotional..

-superstar matt-

Lee Matthew was here at 11:59:00 PM .

shrunk..
rushed to school today.. had "brunch-ner" at about 1.15p.m.. had a bowl of fishball noodles soup, a plate of vegetables and a humongous cube of beancurd.. loved the healthy diet..
rushed to work after school, was late for about 15 minutes.. by time, the rest already had a "lesson" on the types of cups and straws- which is very interesting and valuable to me.. well, i missed the whole "lesson".. thus, went around asking my colleagues.. this particular colleague of mine was kind enough to coach me all over again..
1. Champagne Fruit - a long glass which all champagne drinks are served in..
2. Mixer - a huge long jug which contains only the basic soft drinks.. usually for customers to mix their drinks on their own..
3. Jamjug - a container- like mug with a handle which serves blended beverages..
4. Double- tall glass
5. Old english - a short cup, usually for mc' allen sort of drinks..
6. Matinni - for matinni drinks..
7. Brandy Stiff - a wine glass which looks like a upside- down cone on the top..
8. Beer jug - as the name suggests, this cup is for beer.. depending on the brands..
9. Shooter - usually for shoots.. like tequilla shot..
10. Sip- straw - the short straw, usually for old- english or or matinni cups.. this straw allows consumers to drink sip by sip..
the night seems still and quiet.. no words uttered.. my steps became smaller by the second.. the me inside shrunk..

-superstar matt-

Lee Matthew was here at 11:59:00 PM .

depression..
woke up with a really bad cough and cold.. the superstar cannot talk!.. i simply can't breathe!.. and because i didn't want to sleep any longer, i headed to the hall for TV.. it has been a long time since i glue my eyes to the black box.. i was watching a romance movie.. i sobbed!.. i wept!.. i wailed!.. whatever you call it.. i cried!.. alright?.. although i have watched that film before, but it really moved me this time round.. what a great way to start my day..
decided to head for gym with this weak body of mine.. wanted to see if it will improve my condition when i sweat it out.. and well, it did!.. i went for steam bath too!..
went to work still.. there were many reservations made at my area.. but none turn up!.. i was left bored and irritated at the same time.. for the whole night, i simply stood gorgeous at the restaurant.. most of the time taking my catwalk.. i was questioning my existence there.. i am not supposed to take orders and to serve food.. i can only light candles, clear plates and clean tables!.. actually to stand, look gorgeous and practice my catwalk!.. it must be for money sake that i am there..
went orchard to transfer bus.. as i was strolling along the quiet street, i saw a huge KFC poster featuring their two- piece chicken meal.. i have not taken dinner!.. "this is so sinful.." i thought to myself.. "it's so oily and unhealthy!".. and as i walk, i saw Mac'Donalds!.. "no!.. it's unhealthy!.." the superstar thought once more.. in the end, i bought an ice cream.. i am so bimbotic!.. (as always).. i must finish before moving on.. thus, i sat on the bench outside marriott hotel to finish the ice cream..
my heart is bleeding.. i am crying on the inside..
i am falling into depression!.. i have got all the symptoms now.. i feel ugly!.. or rather, i am!..

-superstar matt-

Lee Matthew was here at 11:59:00 PM .

best..
it is my best friend's birthday today!.. was pretty sad initially because of my busy schedule which seems impossible for me to attend his party to celebrate for him.. nonetheless, i made it to catch the last hour of his day!..
i ran over to hug him the moment i saw him.. i miss him so much!.. we have not met up for along time now.. some of us then went for mid- night movie.. we watched "step up".. it was a nice film!.. we chilled out till the next morning before taking the first bus home..

-superstar matt-

Lee Matthew was here at 11:59:00 PM .

down..
the superstar is down with an extremely terrible flu, cough and sore throat.. please allow him to rest, at least for the night.. but the work load and schedules just don't seem to cooperate with the shining star..
school ended early today.. (it should always be).. went for my hair appointment.. finally!.. been awaiting this day for a long time now.. time just ain't on my side.. then met up with gwen to get my best friend's present.. his birthday is tomorrow!.. i was supposed to accompany and give her advice on what to get but i ended up buying things for myself.. (of course for my bestie too!).. but i will get him some more presents tomorrow.. though i will not be able to make it for your party tomorrow, rest assured.. you are my best buddy!.. love you!..
rushed my report- speech for the moment i reach home.. i am so stressed!.. someone help me!.. given my current condition, i doubt i can give my speech tomorrow morning..
the superstar wants to rest!..

-superstar matt-

Lee Matthew was here at 11:59:00 PM .

privileged..
a great night spent.. loved it!..

-superstar matt-

Lee Matthew was here at 11:59:00 PM .

sank..
the heavy downpour described my feeling today.. woke up rather late today, missed the makeup lesson at 11a.m.. stepped into school at 12p.m sharp.. got the e- learning lecture mixed up.. so lesson only starts at 2p.m!.. i felt like a loser!.. everything got confused.. time wasted!.. i am so panicky about my statistics test tomorrow!.. it is my weakest module!.. and the tutor is so strict!.. it deters me from approaching him if ever i encounter any problems..
started studying statistics in front of all the hungry "ghosts" at the fast food canteen.. didn't feel good at all.. mood was stirred.. feelings were not calmed.. had the fish meal from Mac'donalds for brunch.. was filled but not satisfied..
went for lab session from 2p.m onwards.. read some friends' blogs.. my heart sank!.. guess i am getting used to this.. disappointment upon disappointment.. the moment i re- found trust in people.. another disappointment crush that trust..
in the midst of the lab session, my class "form teacher" called.. she wanted me to collect a form from the class before the end of the day.. but the problem is that none of us brought it.. so i had to take some time off this session- which is very disturbing!.. to zap the forms for the class to fill in..
work officially started today!.. made some friends.. learnt some stuff.. legs were tired.. the place i am working in serves fine- dining.. it is somewhat a pub- restaurant.. classy, style and serene.. a nice place to work in.. nice music, nice people (i hope..), nice surroundings..
there were so many caucasians.. almost 80% of the customers are caucasians.. and the rest of them are caucasians- chinese.. (alright, i am exaggerating..)
had a great time working tonight.. my first task on this job is to light a candle.. of course i did some other tasks subsequently.. took my first order in my life.. (Mc' callen on the rock).. it is a hard liquor that fills only 1/4 of a glass cup full of ice cubes.. enjoyed my day!..
my heart sank.. only you can lift it up!..

-superstar matt-

Lee Matthew was here at 11:59:00 PM .

birthdays..
11november!.. the birthdays of three of my best friends.. how coincidental!.. how amazing!.. was not able to make it to celebrate their birthdays.. (not to mention three parties on the same day!..) due to some other committments and reasons.. anyway, wishing them a blessed and fruitful year ahead!.. words simply can't describe how much i miss them.. i will always remember the fun times we had together.. always encouraging each other to move on in life.. i love you guys!.. we will meet up soon!..

-superstar matt-

Lee Matthew was here at 11:59:00 PM .

bus ride..
had a great day.. went to study at Starbucks, Plaza Singapura after school.. it was a great two hours spent.. i finally sat down quietly and went through my notes.. there will be a test coming up next tuesday and friday respectively.. someone help me!..
it was already 10p.m when i step out of gym.. rushed to take the bus home.. as usual, the bus was filled with people!.. and those who know me really well know that i hate squeezing on public transport..
i didn't have to wait long for the bus.. but within one minute after boarding it, the driver was shouting at the top of his voice warning people to move to the rear.. and shortly after, an auntie commented "there's still space one lorh!".. i was thinking in my mind "so what?.. you guys enjoy being squeezed like tuna in sandwiches?".. people pushing and squeezing.. leaving me with no choice but to go along with the flow to move in.. the girl standing beside me was wearing a christian dior fragrance.. i love it!..
after the bus passed the expressway- the part i hated most in the journey.. people were brushing their butts against mine and as if they seem unable to keep their arms to themselves.. i felt molested!.. the aunties on the bus took advantage of me!.. guess they didn't mean it but i am still getting the jitters of it..
some just can't wait to alight!.. upon seeing me carry two humongous bags, these impatient and inconsiderate passengers could not wait for the bus to stop completely and for me to at least retain my balance.. they just want to get down!.. i was irritated!..
got a seat when i was only 15 minutes away from the bus interchange.. passengers taking to only bukit panjang should give up their seats for me, i am alighting at the bus interchange, people!.. it is a 45 minutes bus ride!..
good thing was that i didn't feel tired after a long day.. perhaps it was really a very well spent day, thus explain the vibrancy in me..
i seriously do not look forward to tomorrow's morning tutorial which starts at 8a.m!..

-superstar matt-

Lee Matthew was here at 11:59:00 PM .

unwell..
the superstar is feeling weak all over.. his body cannot take the pressures and strains anymore.. it had broken down.. the superstar is under medication and is on his way to getting back his pink of health..

-superstar matt-

Lee Matthew was here at 11:59:00 PM .

scrubbed..
had so much to blog about today.. just didn't know how and where to start.. i woke up at 6a.m to do all my tutorials, the semi- conscious superstar took out the accounts textbook for reference to some statistics questions.. and i did not even realise it until i thought about how i did not manage to find the topics when i was on my way to school.. went back to sleep at about 7.30am.. dreamt that i got scolded by my accounts tutor.. he was teaching statistics in my dream on a one- to- one basis.. i simply could not understand statistics.. woke up in shock.. went into a daze for a while before gathering myself again and getting ready for afternoon tutorial.. true enough, i got scolded at the beginning of school today.. it was statistics tutorial!.. i was furious!.. i did my homework alrite?.. you are unreasonable!..
went to install a new program into my laptop.. we need that for accounts tutorial.. you see how much work students need to do nowadays.. homework have to be done via programs, computers, etc.. all the complicated stuff..
had dinner at food junction before heading for my night lecture.. and yes, elvinder and the rest went ahead without me.. reason being, they want good seats.. friends indeed!.. to think i waited for her to finish her work before going to the train station together yesterday.. and mind you, we are taking different directions!.. my clique shoo me away when i finally met them in the lecture room.. i had to go to another corner to sit with maureen and her clique.. i mean, i enjoy sitting with her, but not too often.. i just feel like being with my clique today.. but was disappointed..
paid full attention in lecture today.. was troubled..
could not rest on the train although i got a seat.. was simply disturbed and troubled.. (not to mention the hungry stomach)..
heaved the moment i got home.. i thought to myself.. "my home, my shelter, my nest!".. "life's gonna start here!".. did my laundry.. it has been there in the basket for about two weeks now!.. it is time to get that ass moving!..
whenever i am feeling down, i will wash and clean up my home washroom.. i scrubbed and rinsed.. and of course, that includes the toilet bowl!.. every corner and edge.. every item and inch.. it is now sparkling clean!..
was extremely hungry after the tedious exercise for about one and a half hours.. got my brother to cook some noodles for me.. finally, i sense the love he poured out.. well, it is not easy for us all to dine as a family due to different work committments and schedules.. to have a bowl of noodles cooked by either one of my family members is but a great joy and contentment.. i finished the piping hot bowl of noodles, completely..
looking forward to a great day tomorrow..

-superstar matt-

Lee Matthew was here at 11:59:00 PM .

monday blues..
it is monday again.. the thought of going to school made me feeble.. hands and limbs found no more strength to move about.. eyes became tiresome.. was late for noon lecture today.. cause?.. i missed two buses.. reason?.. i did not want to run for it.. result?.. i waited for another 15 minutes for the next bus.. and ended up being late for lecture..
had my usual three- hour long business software lab session.. yes it was fun!.. sure it was..
as i was on my way home, i saw damien.. he was wearing the tee i had! man!!! we had the same tee!.. i was like.. GOSH!!!.. i simply dislike people having the same stuff as me.. imagine how akward it is when you meet someone wearing the same top as you on the streets.. you would not even know where and how to hide your head!!!..
heavy eyes.. rested..

-superstar matt-

Lee Matthew was here at 11:59:00 PM .

0 dollar..
you will not believe this.. i spent not a single cent today.. i lived on $0! cheers to my saving plan.. enjoyed my day.. life has been great so far.. i will always meet challenges with the faith in me.. bring it on!..
learning to humble myself even more as we progress in life.. better food, better clothing, elevated living standard.. learning to see myself as a steward..

-superstar matt-

Lee Matthew was here at 11:59:00 PM .

do it..
went to the gym after an enjoyable day in school.. i really feel the stretch all over my body, feels like all my other sessions have gone to waste.. my trainer was really motivating and i guess that is what everyone needs when we head the gym.. we always need someone by our side to tell us that we can do it, that we are almost there and not to give up easily.. and at the end of the day, we get what we always wanted- the ideal figure.. it is true even in our lives..
went to a chinese restaurant for dinner with some of my friends at marina square.. i was not filled!.. the portion is small and definitely not enough to go round.. what a glutten we are..
attended a friend's grandma's wake.. the quiet surroundings kept the three of us still and sitted.. but we were trying to break the silence.. had a lot of nuts though.. but i am still hungry..
a great day spent..

-superstar matt-

Lee Matthew was here at 11:59:00 PM .

rain rain..
was supposed to meet uncle for dim sum brunch buffet today.. but i woke up late.. thus we ended up having breeks.. the fish was fresh just that the portion was small.. went window- shopping at marina square.. a great fellowship..
it was raining heavily when i decided to go to the gym.. was stucked at somerset MRT station.. the smart superstar ran across to centrepoint for shelter- at least for a while.. then purchased a umbrella from giordano.. it is black in colour! was so happy, now that i can walk all the way to paragon..
went for a movie, the grudge 2, at cineleisure.. the theatre was filled with my screams.. it was horrible! i enjoy horror films but always am scared when i watch them.. i like romance stories too! to see how couples in the movies make up after some trials they go through and how they live happily ever after..
had an enjoyable day..

-superstar matt-

Lee Matthew was here at 11:59:00 PM .