YSunday, November 19, 2006
depression..
woke up with a really bad cough and cold.. the superstar cannot talk!.. i simply can't breathe!.. and because i didn't want to sleep any longer, i headed to the hall for TV.. it has been a long time since i glue my eyes to the black box.. i was watching a romance movie.. i sobbed!.. i wept!.. i wailed!.. whatever you call it.. i cried!.. alright?.. although i have watched that film before, but it really moved me this time round.. what a great way to start my day..
decided to head for gym with this weak body of mine.. wanted to see if it will improve my condition when i sweat it out.. and well, it did!.. i went for steam bath too!..
went to work still.. there were many reservations made at my area.. but none turn up!.. i was left bored and irritated at the same time.. for the whole night, i simply stood gorgeous at the restaurant.. most of the time taking my catwalk.. i was questioning my existence there.. i am not supposed to take orders and to serve food.. i can only light candles, clear plates and clean tables!.. actually to stand, look gorgeous and practice my catwalk!.. it must be for money sake that i am there..
went orchard to transfer bus.. as i was strolling along the quiet street, i saw a huge KFC poster featuring their two- piece chicken meal.. i have not taken dinner!.. "this is so sinful.." i thought to myself.. "it's so oily and unhealthy!".. and as i walk, i saw Mac'Donalds!.. "no!.. it's unhealthy!.." the superstar thought once more.. in the end, i bought an ice cream.. i am so bimbotic!.. (as always).. i must finish before moving on.. thus, i sat on the bench outside marriott hotel to finish the ice cream..
my heart is bleeding.. i am crying on the inside..
i am falling into depression!.. i have got all the symptoms now.. i feel ugly!.. or rather, i am!..
-superstar matt-
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