last..the last day of 2006 left me with a nose bleed!.. went to cityhall with the intention of going to the esplanade to countdown for the new year.. but the huge, sweaty and smelly crowds detered the idea of doing so..
went to marina square instead.. was rather packed!.. i could literally see thousands of people like ants from the height of stairs at marina square.. annoying few were spraying some foam- like sprays or whatever you name that as..
enjoyed my countdown with becca, win and huiling.. and i spent so much on beverages!..
anyway, many people often ask me why i don't reply my tags.. well, initially i thought it might be good for my readers to leave their opinions and thoughts.. but in 2007, i will try to reply and chat in my tagboard.. so readers, do anticipate!.. to add on, since fans have been calling me diva instead of superstar, i shall change my name to diva from 2007 onwards.. but of course, this does not take away the superstar quality in me.. thank you guys for always believing in me!.. love you!..
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life..had fun last night.. was out with my bestie!.. we ate a lot yesterday!.. from place to place, we tried possibly everything that seemed pleasing to our sight.. i feel so fat now!.. after all the mouth- watering food, we went to a bar for some drinks then ended up at happy un- planned!.. was out the whole night!.. finally i feel some night life!.. it's rare that i'm available on friday nights.. well, great night out!.. love it!..
bestie and i at happy!.. some of the photos we took!.. great night spent!..
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strayed..the year is definitely coming to an end soon.. what resolutions or goals have we all targeted and achieved this year?.. i dislike this feeling!.. - to reflect on whatever we have done for the year is but a dreadful thing to do.. not to include having to set resolutions for the next year!..
my life have definitely taken a huge twist this year.. many down and difficult times.. yet, few happy and joyous moments.. disappointments after disappoiontments.. those whom i thought know me well, turned out not to be so.. those whom i placed my trust in, betrayed it.. seems like there isn't anyone whom i can confide in..
2006 marked a great entry for people in my life.. the year allowed me to open up to others whom i never thought i would meet and those whom i wished i had never met.. these, never meant to stay, for sure.. some, i would not even consider my friends..
strayed from my "best- est" friend this year.. i'm regretting it now!.. everything seems so nice on the outside, the temptation to lure me towards it.. just like the apple of good and evil in the garden of eden during adam's time, when God first created man.. but when you finally get to taste the hot- red and deliciously- shaped apple, you simpy wished you had not touched it!.. guess that's what i'm feeling now.. but as human beings, we are constantly dissatisfied and are always in the search for better looking fruits.. and when we get to eat them, the feeling of regrets come all over us again.. it is liken to a cycle.. i wished i had the courage to let go and move on..
many times, i tell myself to let go and move on.. to go and reconcile with my "best- est" friend, but i have got no courage to do it!.. it's not easy alright?.. everything was so great with him, it seems wonderful, until i tasted some other fruits.. we strayed apart.. yes, i strayed!.. and i guess he will not want me back as his friend anymore.. it is still best for me to know my place and keep clear of his zone..
it's dreadful to set resolutions for 2007!.. i don't want to do it!.. overwhelmed by how fast the clock ticks..
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boxing day..it's boxing day today!.. and i still don't have enough sleep.. so, what is boxing day?.. why is it named boxing day?.. what is the significance of it?.. someone please enlighten me..
woke up a few times in the morning.. was supposed to sun- tan today, but judging from the weather forecast, i postponed it!.. had my first meal at 4.45p.m.. and the second at 8.30p.m.. guess i'm losing appetite.. i simply don't have the mood to eat!.. just feel like starving and lose weight!..
was rather happy in the afternoon.. but mood got disrupted at evening.. and i simply didn't feel like doing anything else but to sit and stare blankly into the air..
went to the doctor's the other day, he told me that i had to go on medication for a period of time in order to control my condition.. but the thing is that this particular medicine has got side effects.. depression is one of them.. and now, some of the effects are taking place already!.. so, the next time you think i have got attitude problem, you know the reason and cause behind it..
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christmas..held a chalet over the weekend, from saturday to monday.. i am so tired now!.. all i need is sleep!..
went to bed at 5.30a.m on saturday!.. then woke up at 11a.m.. that was only 5.5 hours!.. was busy preparing for chalet the moment i woke up.. then checked in at 3.30p.m.. rushed for a drama production which starts at 4.30p.m.. many things cropped up at the last minute.. my friends were supposed to start the fire for bbq, which actually didn't work out.. so that left me with no choice but to buy takeaway for the whole group of them.. spent 20bucks on fried rice!.. and we found that it wasn't enough, so i got the restaurant to help us cook the food we brought.. and well, we paid!.. (again!).. saturday night kept me awake because all the beds were fully taken up.. organised the lot of them to bed.. made sure they are sound asleep before i shower and clean myself off that busy day!.. went to the beach for a stroll after showering.. alone in the night breeze, is but an enjoyment.. three of them couldn't sleep, so we played at the beach.. taught them yoga!.. it was fun!.. and of course, multiple attempts to throw one another down the water..
some of them got out of the chalet for their daily activities early on sunday!.. thus, i can sleep in!.. laid on the bed.. got up for the washroom.. then my bed was taken up!.. of course i was furious!.. i mean, why snatch my place?.. you have slept enough, right?.. i was extremely busy and worked hard the whole day and wasn't even allowed to sleep?.. (DUH!?!?!?) and for people who know me well enough, i hate squeezing!.. yes, totally!.. so, i left the room to calm myself.. got to bed only at 9a.m!.. imagine the fatigue this body got to go through.. thank God everyone left the chalet by 9 plus, leaving me and another friend.. we slept till about 2.30p.m before he went home.. well, that was 5 hours of sleep!.. took a shower and in the midst of it, some of them came back!.. i was alone in the chalet and i had to open the door!.. i ran back to the washroom the moment i unlock the door.. started fire and prepared for the night's bbq after my brunch.. the allegic face was over the fire for as long as no one wishes to help barbeque the food!.. the whole place indeed was in a mess, just like my thoughts and mood then!.. just take all the food away!.. someone kept eating!.. kept taking food, again and again.. it's him!.. "can i take this?".. "can i take that?".. i mean, can i say "no"?.. until i reach a point whereby i told him to bring away all the food!.. even though i only had brunch the whole day!.. i lost my appetite!.. yes, disgusted!.. i am not complaining here!.. i need space in my mind, so i'm leaving these here.. i do not wish for rewards or whatever you call it, but a simple "thank you" is more than enough.. yet again and again, i was disappointed.. well, it doesn't matter anymore!.. was so depressed that i left everything and went to the beach to let it out!.. yes, i wept!.. no one knows.. the sort of "appreciation" i deserve!..
slept at 3a.m today and woke up at 8a.m to book out the chalet.. well, that is another 5 hours.. so in total, i only had 15.5 hours of sleep in three days.. very challenged!..
a great weekend i must say..
-superstar matt-
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foolish..haven't been posting blogs for a long time now.. many things happened the last few days which detered and dampened my spirit to blog.. i am feeling rather stressed out now!.. ain't no idea why this is the case.. worst of all, my tests are all over and i am in a two- week holiday!.. perhaps all these will be over when the year is over!.. i really wish so..
watched the movie, eragon.. it was not bad, just that the plot ain't that fantastic..
many times, people are not what they appear to be.. their words mean nothing at all.. i get so confused and baffled figuring out which of these are genuine.. i hate this kind of feeling!.. i guess things really got to end here.. i can't go on anymore!..
christmas party tonight was great!.. just that i wasn't in the mood.. anyway, thanks guys for organising the event!.. love you all!..
i feel foolish!.. yes, very foolish!..
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forgot..the two- week holiday finally started today!.. but i still got to work!.. there is no break or vacation for the star!.. what a life!..
it has been raining the whole day, yesterday and today!.. everyone do remember to bring umbrella out.. because i forgot to bring mine out today!.. but thank God i wasn't drenched!.. yet, i got to keep thinking of ways to walk from one place to another without being in the rain.. well, that is easy for me!..
the star's schedule is so packed this week!.. so, please make reservation with the star at least one and a half week in advance if you want to meet up with him..
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hectic..hectic schedule for the star started at 6a.m!.. tried a new hairstyle today and everyone thought i cut my hair!.. well, i'm versatile!.. in every way possible..
it was raining the whole day!.. without a choice, i bought an umbrella.. they do not have black colour!.. thus, chose red!.. it's a nice colour too..
the long hours of stamina- demanding and physically tiring catwalks are breaking the star's hot legs.. i need a foot reflexology!.. someone go with me!..
my holidays finally started!.. well, it's only for a good two weeks.. not to mention the completion of tough and tedious projects within these two weeks!.. really hope that my group members will be understanding and that we can work well together..
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concert..had a great time out with anna.. i ate a lot today!.. anyway, we went thai express for dinner.. then to a concert.. the cabby certainly don't know the way to the concert venue!.. and he insisted that he knows after multiple times of me prompting him to use the street directory.. he was simply lazy!.. gosh!.. don't remind me of that again!.. a pity that we can't stay throughout the whole concert.. my apologies to someone!..
it has been almost a year or two since we last chatted like this.. and i thought it was productive.. thanks anna for all the counsel and advices.. i count it a blessing to have anna as my friend, someone who knows me well and i would say we both for mutual understanding for each other!.. she taught me something today and it would be nice for me to post it as well.. the four Rs..
reflect . repent . renew . re- commit
guess i shall leave it here.. i am tired!..
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ache..presentation was rather alright today.. my friends said that i somehow had the cantonese accent at the second half of my speech.. i didn't even realise that!.. oh, cantonese done this to me!.. didn't feel good about the accounts paper!..
so apologetic to my clique that i can't join them to chill out after school.. and i was the one who suggested going out!.. my schedule is extremely packed today!.. i didn't even have time to eat!..
went plaza singapura to buy something.. then rushed to the gym to finish some tasks, since that is the only place i can use.. well, everyone was looking at me!.. i felt so embarrassed!.. thought i can have at least one hour to work out.. but no, i didn't have the time!.. and after that, i needed to go suntec office to collect something.. but ain't got any idea how to get there!.. went to the bus- stop outside hereen, thinking that i can board bus 16 there.. well, there is no bus 16!.. took service 171 instead.. almost got lost after i alighted.. the star then slowly found his way to the suntec office.. feel so lost everytime i am around that area.. dislike the feeling of being uncertain and lost..
my back was aching and i felt lethargic after the collection.. it was so sudden that i almost fainted!.. perhaps it was also due to the empty stomach!.. passed by the convention centre and decided to take a rest there.. had something light before moving on.. my back is still aching!..
went little india for supper after cell group.. had curry rice.. i don't find it nice at all, whereas on the other hand, i think it's unbearable!.. the sight of vendors preparing the food irks my appetite.. can't understand why so many people are queueing for it..
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somebody..was supposed to wake up at 8a.m.. because i wanted breakfast!.. but ended up waking up at 9.40a.m!..
rushed all the way from the mrt station to school.. i ran!.. yes, under the scorching sun!.. reached the lecture room just in time - one minute before i am officially late!.. thank God for the hot legs!.. they are not only good for show, but useful as well!.. (muahaahaa)
went gym to study.. did my guideline for tomorrow's presentation.. felt that it was good!.. went with the intent to work out, but i was simply affected by the thought of tomorrow's schedule!.. did some light weights before i headed to the shower room!.. just not in the mood to workout!.. perhaps it was due to the rain that caused discomfort.. (my jeans was wet!)..
had a good chat with kevin.. we went to buy his dinner and then proceeded to orange julius!.. had something light though.. found that we actually have a rather similar ideology.. well, that's a good thing!.. (i hope so)..
contemplating if i should get a CK or an AX tee for eug for his belated.. well, i will make up my mind soon.. give me some time!..
reached home.. had dinner, can't finish due to lack of appetite.. went through my speech for the first time and did some editing to the guidelines.. i felt so lethargic that i put my books aside to sleep, intending to wake up at 4.30a.m to study again.. but sam sms- ed me!.. she reminded that i forgot to add in bibliography for the guidelines.. oh!.. thank God for her!.. i got up immediately and switched on my laptop!.. made the necessary changes and sent it to her again!.. i was so nervous and stressed out that i couldn't even breathe normally.. oh, she is helping me to print the guidelines.. it is an individual work!.. how i wish i can be like her - stressfree.. even though she has not studied for the test tomorrow.. well, i can only say that i am anxious!.. yes, anxiety over anxiety!..
somebody had somebody then abandoned somebody..
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mine..bought a CK coin holder today!.. i knew it will be mine the moment i saw it!.. but contemplated till now.. well, i am euphoric!.. just a little disappointed when the cashier told me that they do not have the usual CK paper bag due to the sale period.. thus, ended up with a big carrier!..
met up with YH.. he treated me to dinner at vila'ge.. reason being, he was late!.. (muahaahaa!).. haven't seen him for such a long time now.. he's grown so valgur after being enrolled to serve the nation.. will all men become like this when asked to serve the nation?.. am i gonna be like this in the near future?.. i doubt so!.. i don't want a lifestyle like his..
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increase..woke up with a hot beverage and newspaper on my table.. a great morning spent engaging with the cares of the world.. increasing my general knowledge at the same time..
my statistics test was rather alright today!.. am able to finish the paper even though i forgot my calculator.. all thanks to shujuan that i managed to get all my values..
a great day ended at the gym!..
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damned!..it's eug's birthday today!.. best wishes for him!..
didn't study for the internet web- based test on access today!.. however, felt that it was quite a manageable paper.. hope that i can do well!..
a damned day!.. you betrayed the trust i placed in you.. no words uttered.. i can see it through your actions.. go ahead and do what you like, since that has always been the case (like what you always do!).. i have given up all hopes in you.. just don't try to incoporate your lifestyle into mine..it simply doesn't work this way!..
i picked up a black motorola razor today!.. but the kind- hearted and integrity- filled superstar handed the cell phone to the lost and found counter.. hoping for the owner to claim it!.. how dumb is that?.. i could have sold it or traded in for the nokia cell phone which i have been eyeing for some time now!.. well, i don't need and am not hard up for this sort of "deals"!.. (it is an insult!).. i want to work hard and save for the things i yearn for.. i want to reach a stage whereby i can support myself!.. (not living from hand to mouth only - obviously!).. this would mean that i need to work hard and save for the gucci bag which suits me perfectly.. (it will take a rather long time though).. surely i can't expect the bag to drop form heaven and land in my hands, right?.. but if anyone wanna buy it for me as a gift, i would gladly receive.. (i'm serious!)..
did a fast and steady 15- minute grocery before heading home.. i hurt my last toe on my right foot!.. kept kicking onto the wheel of the trolley!.. thank God the nail didn't came off..
oh!.. one thing to mention.. think i lost my levi's jeans.. i cannot find it anywhere!.. well, it has been months and i realised it only now!.. (bimbotic!).. someone help me find it!..
a damned day indeed!..
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star..woke up at 6a.m today!.. and i do not have to work today!.. so happy!.. because i wanna rush home to watch the star awards tonight.. but was disappoionted!..
reached home by 5.45p.m.. sat by the TV till about 11p.m.. simply felt the awards were not well justified!.. well, don't feel like commenting!.. blogs have become a rather dangerous and can be a slanderous thing.. so i shall leave it to others to say..
a stressed week ahead!..
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birthday!..it is anna's birthday today!.. blessed birthday anna!.. miss you so much!.. one of my best friends in secondary school, someone who had sown a seed of happiness, joy, excitement, hope, concern and love in my life.. someone whom i can willingly open up to.. anna, love you!..
had a busy day.. rushed to school, attended the usual boring and uninteresting tutorial at 8a.m (well, i was late!).. anyhow, i went gym today!.. first time this week!.. gosh!.. my body ain't working out!..
rushed to holland village after cellgroup to celebrate anna's birthday!.. we had a great time indeed!.. got so much to catch up on and it simply feels great to be able to see all my friends again!.. we took essential brew by storm!.. made the loudest noise, stayed the longest and had a huge bill!.. bet they enjoy serving us too!.. oh well, i helped myself to the ice water whenever we needed refill, because i understand the pains of being a wait- person.. especially when met with a difficult customer like me.. (muahahaha!) so, serve me well if you are in the service industry.. and i will repay via the bills!..
the superstar is worn- out physically and mentally..
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fast and swift..been working for almost every day the whole week.. the tired and drained superstar have to find time for his studies too.. well, the stamina- demanding tasks forbade him from all tutorials.. i feel so awkward during tutorials!..
it rained today!.. a moody day for me.. didn't talk much in school today.. was just about my own business..
went to work today!.. having to juggle between the tireness and stresses of the tasks landed me speechless.. people were not alert!.. they were merely standing and looking pretty (but they're not!).. even the superstar had to tell them what to do!.. it was an enjoyable time despite the confusions.. was actually supposed to be stationed at the garden under a really "no- brainer" (in my opinion) supervisor.. then two other colleagues whom i can and am able to work well with, asked me to request to be runner.. (the significance of the superstar).. thus, i swapped responsibility with another colleague..
i like it fast and swift!.. do not slow me down!.. don't waste my time!..
a tiring day!..
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enjoying..took my first order today!.. it was a bottle of asahi dry.. my second order was a cup of jean tonic, a cup of wiskey soda and two glasses of chivas on the rock!.. rather glad because at least i am enjoying my job now.. made a few friends.. of course they are nice people!.. i would miss them if i were to quit.. did over- time today.. enjoyed it although it was extremely tiring, especially when i didn't sleep well last night and i have morning lesson at 9a.m tomorrow!..
it will be a fantastic day tomorrow!..
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challenging..i had a challenging day!.. enjoyed my work finally.. it was really fun today!.. i had a chance to be runner!.. thus, i learnt many things!.. loved it!.. rushed home after work.. did my laundry.. showered.. ate.. "msn- ed".. checked mails.. all in a rush, hoping to turn in early!.. all in all, a challenging day for me!.. i'm gonna conquer all that is coming my way!.. it will be a fabulous day tomorrow, for sure!..
one thing i learnt today.. "courage is not the absence of fear.. but it is the boldness to conquer that fear!"
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filling..planned to study today.. but accompanied uncle to vivocity for brunch and shopping!.. we couldn't make up our minds where to dine at.. anyhow, had such a filling brunch and tiresome shopping time together... we went grandmother's place later in the evening.. i was so tired!.. took a nap before dinner.. i'm feeling rather unwell now.. it could be due to the lack of sleep!.. nice day out though..
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new..it's a brand new month!..
great day indeed..
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