YWednesday, December 27, 2006
strayed..
the year is definitely coming to an end soon.. what resolutions or goals have we all targeted and achieved this year?.. i dislike this feeling!.. - to reflect on whatever we have done for the year is but a dreadful thing to do.. not to include having to set resolutions for the next year!..
my life have definitely taken a huge twist this year.. many down and difficult times.. yet, few happy and joyous moments.. disappointments after disappoiontments.. those whom i thought know me well, turned out not to be so.. those whom i placed my trust in, betrayed it.. seems like there isn't anyone whom i can confide in..
2006 marked a great entry for people in my life.. the year allowed me to open up to others whom i never thought i would meet and those whom i wished i had never met.. these, never meant to stay, for sure.. some, i would not even consider my friends..
strayed from my "best- est" friend this year.. i'm regretting it now!.. everything seems so nice on the outside, the temptation to lure me towards it.. just like the apple of good and evil in the garden of eden during adam's time, when God first created man.. but when you finally get to taste the hot- red and deliciously- shaped apple, you simpy wished you had not touched it!.. guess that's what i'm feeling now.. but as human beings, we are constantly dissatisfied and are always in the search for better looking fruits.. and when we get to eat them, the feeling of regrets come all over us again.. it is liken to a cycle.. i wished i had the courage to let go and move on..
many times, i tell myself to let go and move on.. to go and reconcile with my "best- est" friend, but i have got no courage to do it!.. it's not easy alright?.. everything was so great with him, it seems wonderful, until i tasted some other fruits.. we strayed apart.. yes, i strayed!.. and i guess he will not want me back as his friend anymore.. it is still best for me to know my place and keep clear of his zone..
it's dreadful to set resolutions for 2007!.. i don't want to do it!.. overwhelmed by how fast the clock ticks..
-superstar matt-
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