Vintage

matt..
why is this the outcome?.. when i thought i had already tried my best.. contributing and giving much more of myself.. yes, you have forgotten the goodness others have haboured towards you.. no, you didn't cherished..

controlling my fears and tears..

hiding my presence from everyone else..

missing the times we all spent..

ain't it all a dream?.. i've awaken and moved on!.. not wanting to cling onto something i know wouldn't last.. well, foolish i was!.. the end of it indeed is hard to accept, but i just got to let go..

was bored studying.. thus wrote my name!.. blur picture this is..

-superstar matt-

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beginning..

a new beginning for me!..
took my marketing paper today, it was rather alright.. just hope that i can score an A for this module!.. well, went holland village for brunch after that.. i had so much!.. so full!..

then went to celebrate serene's birthday at rolling wok!.. yes, i ate somemore!.. and we "lo hei"!.. think i'm going to grow fat this time round..

after which, we drove up to jewel box.. like the ambience.. will bring my friends there one day!.. it was a fun time out!..

the "yu sang" we had..

-superstar matt-

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jubilant..

part of my post for the day.. (if you can read it).. i have decided to move on!..

part of the notes i have written today!.. tedious i must say!.. tired!..

went to graffiti cafe at hereen for lunch.. and my queue number is 1!.. so happy!.. i perceive this as an indication for my paper tomorrow!.. (muahahaa!)..
had dinner with bsrw.. we went pasta mania at cineleisure.. apologise for being so picky about food!.. (haa!).. really enjoyed the company!.. and to shuhui, do remember that you still have a friend like me.. i will always be here for you.. anytime, anywhere.. love you darling princess!..

-superstar matt-

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tell me!..

my first meal of the day was at 9.25p.m!.. i fasted for one full day, can anyone imagine?.. especially someone like me.. who love and adore food!..

studied at Mac'Donalds in the night, only for a short while.. but accomplished quite a bit.. well, going to study the whole day tomorrow!.. anyone want to meet me for dinner?..
oh, one thing.. am i very long- winded in my smses?.. how come people don't reply my messages?.. or you guys can't be bothered?.. tell me!..

another thing.. i realised that there have been a few "unknown" individuals who had been tagging my blog recently.. tell me who you are.. i never liked guessing games!..

by the way.. can anyone tell me how was chingay?.. was it shown on T.V?.. was it nice?.. what was it about?..

drew this randomly when i was studying earlier..

-superstar matt-

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someone..
i slept at around 12a.m last night.. woke up at 3a.m.. studied till about 4.45a.m and decided to go back to bed.. but i couldn't fall asleep again.. thus tossed and turned until about 5.15a.m.. i went to the kitchen in search for food!.. i had noodles!.. then went back to bed at 6.30a.m..

statistics paper was not as difficult as i thought it would be.. thank God!.. managed to finish the paper.. well, a good start i suppose!.. so, i will have to work harder for the rest of the papers..

someone was supposed to meet me for lunch in town before my paper today.. but as i was on my way, he called and said that he forgotten about the date!.. he had already bought movie tickets with another friend.. well, i lunched alone!.. actually i sort of anticipated that.. my intuition was right!.. it has always been.. it was rather weird, i wasn't furious at all.. perhaps because of my intuition.. well, he owed me a meal!.. (muahahaa.. thanks in advance!)..

couldn't make it for family dinner and "lo hei" tonight.. but went cafe del mar at sentosa with a few friends.. it is quite a nice place to chill out at.. a rather packed night though..

this kitkat is from japan.. it's so nice!.. totally different from what we have here in singapore..

at cafe del mar.. enjoying the conversation!..

at cafe del mar.. i love this photo!..

-superstar matt-

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motivation..
what a rare chance for me to blog twice in a day!.. aimed to wake up at 12p.m to study but the lazy bones stayed in bed until about 2p.m.. took a quick shower before heading Mac'Donalds to study!.. pushed all appointments away.. tomorrow is my exam!.. i can't afford to play anymore, at least for this two weeks!..

studied till about 9p.m before heading home for dinner.. on my way to take the bus, i saw this blind man(one of those typical old men you see at the MRT stations, playing some instruments).. he was packing up, together with another woman, his wife i suppose.. my heart melted!.. to see how hard- working that man is.. how many of us actually count our blessings?.. yet, we are always not satisfied, until we lose something precious to us..

i realised i need a lot of encouragement, especially during this period of time when i'm going through my end- of- year examinations!.. so do send me a message during your free time to spur me on!..

drew this earlier.. got off- track while studying.. i need to focus!..

will you be my motivation?..

-superstar matt-

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muse..
went to k- box last night again!.. but with a different group of friends.. alex and vito, from hongkong.. well, just "showing them around" singapore!.. although there aren't many fun things in singapore yet.. (waiting for the marina IR to be built!).. there's nothing much to do, so we decided on k- box!.. it was so random!.. they called me during dinner with my family.. i obliged because i don't think i have time for them anymore, at least for the next few weeks..
was supposed to meet up with shuhui and the rest.. but due to the abrupt dinner, i couldn't get away.. an apology here.. but did meet them up for a short 15minutes.. wished i stayed longer..
many songs moved me the night before, last night was no exception.. well, i controlled my emotions!..
the song on shuhui's blog is nice!..

was rather tired after so many nights out.. thinking of you!..

-superstar matt-

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glimpse..

went k- box with my friends last night!.. the worst thing happened when they accidentally spilled a glass of chocolate- ice on me!.. my burms were ruined!.. well, thanks to tino and kel for helping me to the washroom and cleaning me up.. anyway, enjoyed the singing session!.. hilarious it was!.. fun time out!..

as i was on the cab home this morning at about 3.45a.m.. i thought to myself.. why am i doing all these?.. and the reason is simply because of you!.. i sacrificed my time (supposedly to study).. and energy.. just so that i could catch a glimpse of you and be about wherever and whatever you do.. and i want to be a part of you!.. yes, i really do!..

perhaps what i wanted was never meant to be.. well, i believe you know what i mean.. yes you do..

i realised something when i woke up this morning.. i was extremely hungry!.. my stomach was growling!.. and jian said i am always hungry.. well, seems quite true!.. (muahahaa!).. i want to grow fat!.. so fat that i have to take two seats on trains and buses!.. (just joking!).. come to think of it, it will surely be very difficult to buy clothes or even walk properly!.. and then i can never enjoy going shopping anymore!.. (haha!.. i'm thinking too much! i will never grow that fat!)..

don't keep me apart from you..

dinner at dragon gate restaurant with family last night.. (see those sleepless and tiresome nights?)..

-superstar matt-

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spur..
i held on to your hand when the fireworks started, the clock striked 12.. happy chinese new year!.. wishing all of you a prosperous year ahead!.. although i have to stay home and study, i hope it will be a fruitful time spent!..
well, i haven't been blogging for a long time now.. valentines' day was just another day for me.. i went to work.. but i haven't been going to the gym as often!..
through the past week, i have been reflecting a lot.. been thinking about the words people say.. sure i feel hurt and unappreciated.. but perhaps it is all about me not being right?.. i don't know.. and i try hard not to think about it!.. it ain't a good feeling if you get what i mean..
guess i just need more encouragement and spur!..

my pretty cousin!..

-superstar matt-

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glamour!..
went to work today!.. mediacorp held its viewer choice event over there.. an event catering to over 150 people.. all the rich and famous are there!.. well, i got a chance to "rub" shoulders with them!.. first was mr chang long jong, the deputy ceo of mediacorp!.. next was mr lucas chow, the ceo of mediacorp!.. well, after that were some other important people like mr james yip, the managing director of mediacorp radio, ms dawn yip, the co- owner of jean yip group and michelle cheong, a mediacorp actress!.. it was a great night i suppose..
i would love to be one of them.. rich and famous!.. well, soon!.. i foresee that day!.. it is approaching really soon!..
despite these glamour, i didn't enjoyed work today!.. but overall, a nice day.. went to visit a friend after i knock off!.. (i requested to leave early today!).. then went for supper!.. i'm still hungry!..

-superstar matt-

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relieve..
stayed up the whole night yesterday, except for that 1.5 hours nap!.. was rushing my project!.. the presentation went smoothly initially.. but i sort of screwed it up!.. forgotten that i added some new slides.. and well, i handed the time over to the next speaker before i officially finished!.. well, it's all over!.. thank God!..
wore my new pair of shoes today.. couldn't get used to it!.. my feet hurts!..
i was just wondering.. why some people treat the school as their home?.. they behaved as if they are not governed by anyone.. talk as if no one cares.. attitudes were totally different from when first met.. ugly singaporeans' attitude!.. (not to say that i possess a very good attitude whatsoever, but at least i don't talk anyhow as and when i like.. and that i am aware of my behaviors and manners!)..
had an enjoyable night today.. it's been so long since i last played at the playground!.. (ahaa!).. take it as a form of relieving my stresses!.. tiring day, but fun!..
a better day tomorrow!..

-superstar matt-

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rush..
went to the doctor today.. my eczema is due to the medication.. well, it's rather common (the doctor said).. he gave me a medicated moisturizer to help cope with the dryness of the skin.. it ain't that bad afterall, just that i needed extra moisture than usual..
had a busy day.. started the day in a daze..
went to jurong point to pass my sister something.. then rushed to the doctor's.. after which, i went for brunch.. then to the gym to put my bag.. rushed to collect my pay, which was not ready!.. went to visit a friend working at plaza singapura.. then rushed back to gym to workout!.. tired i was!.. went to clake quay in the evening!..
bought a lot of food home.. hungry and worn- out!..
on the last week of school, i'm still rushing project!.. my friends in other polytechnics are already having their study break, getting ready for the battle of examinations!..
still can't get over it totally..

-superstar matt-

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wept!..
made to feel worthless today.. upset!.. it's time to do something out of the ordinary in my life.. i need a change!..
wept in the washroom in school earlier.. it was just one hour after lesson started!.. i didn't intend to, but i simply couldn't take it anymore.. a good 20minutes all by myself.. couldn't return to class, my eyes were red!.. after which, i skipped all lessons for today!..
went to look up my mom at her workplace.. i needed comfort and shield.. and i know she'll stand by me.. (i feel like a loser!)..
then we met up with my dad for dinner.. i was in total daze.. no mood to talk!.. my dad asked me what i wanted for dinner.. i said up to him.. (oh, what an answer!)..
bad day!.. made to feel worthless and shameful!..

-superstar matt-

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beloved..
it's my beloved sister's birthday today!.. love you sis!.. hope you enjoyed your day out with us all!..
a day well- spent!..

-superstar matt-

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worried!..
mythili wants me to blog about her.. well, what can i say?.. she is one of those first few i met when i got into polytechnic.. a rather interesting girl indeed.. she is the assistant class rep and i, the class rep.. it has always been fun working together with her.. though our birthday plans always fail.. but well, it is a good experience anyway..
an interesting girl indeed, waiting to get slapped!.. (she knows what i mean).. and al of us got to take queue numbers.. in short, she is always finding fault at everyone possible.. (muahahaa!).. it is so random!.. no matter who she meet, just somehow they will end up "fighting".. (*laughs*)..
anyway, i have been really busy these few days.. rushing projects!.. skipped quite a number of lessons (again!), just so that i can sleep longer or do more work.. well, life will get better soon!..
oh!.. i have been experiencing itchiness at my elbows, hands and sometimes legs.. i think i have eczema!.. i need help!!!.. i don't want to wake up one day finding myself with "scaley" skin.. what if my friends don't want to hang out with me anymore because of that?.. what if i cannot wear "lesser" and go sun- tan at the beach?.. what if the condition gets worse?.. i have been applying lotions and creams to stabalise the condition.. hope it will get better soon!.. hope that this is not the result of my medication!.. made an appointment with my specialist, shall consult him about it!..
worried!..

-superstar matt-

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drained!..
haven't had a good sleep for the past one week.. life has become so mundane and wearisome all of a sudden!.. blame it on those projects which deprived me of freedom!.. my schedules are all planned according to the project meetings.. i am so drained!..
well, nonetheless.. it's gwendolene's birthday today!.. planned a surprise for her.. we showed up at her place.. for dinner!.. and of course, to celebrate this magnificient occassion!.. a memorable day indeed!.. her younger sister almost drive me crazy!.. i have a phobia of small children!.. serious, i am..
a great day awaits me tomorrow!..

-superstar matt-

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