Vintage

party..
the party animal is tired tonight.. tired and bored of the same music at all the different places.. well, things would not be the same if there's someone to pay for the cover charges, drinks and cab fares.. (*hint hint* anyone caught it?)..
pondering pondering pondering.. hesitating hesitating hesitating..
tired and drained, i'm sleeping early tonight and getting ready for a power- packed day tomorrow!..

-superstar matt-

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updates..

let the photos do the talking.. these were taken on friday..

my new haircut..

brunch with irwin!..

saturday, shine's wedding day!..

sunday!.. time to relax, but i'm rushing from place to place.. busy day!..

monday, a tiring day.. went many places, some of which i have never been before.. nice day out!..

-superstar matt-

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happy!..
a happy day indeed!.. the excitement in me.. cannot be expressed by mere words.. though life seemed mundane today, the happiness which filled my heart made it all worthwhile..

-superstar matt-

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relaxing..

met up with huifang for lunch.. we had a hard time deciding what to eat.. but had japanese cuisine anyway.. well, we haven't had a good chat for a long time already..

then met wayne in town!.. we went for movie, the messengers.. it was so scary!.. i was literally screaming throughout.. so for those who have a weak heart, please do not watch it!.. (muahahaa!).. and oh, talking about movies.. i want to watch mr. bean's holiday!.. and it will be out tomorrow!.. i want to watch!..

had pasta mania for dinner.. a nice day out!.. plain relaxing.. loved it!..

guess i'm having a sore throat soon.. someone please buy me herbal tea!..

-superstar matt-

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waiting..
had a nice chat with wayne the moment i woke up.. then rushed for my gym session.. was so worn out.. and i had to make my way to suntec city to collect something.. well, was supposed to meet nigel at 7pm.. guess what time he reached?!?!.. near 8pm!.. but it was understandable.. (if there is such a word).. so i took some pictures while waiting for him.. and a nap as well..

waiting..

still waiting..

see that pair of God- given hot and sexy legs?.. it's MINE!!!

-superstar matt-

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elated..
wishing andy an elated 19th birthday!.. may you find joy in all that you do.. hope you like the present shared by fiona and me.. and the card i made..

i wore this out today.. the pair of slippers wilson bought for me.. ain't he sweet?.. yes he is.. thanks wilson!..
rushed my workout today, so that i can be on time to meet andy and the rest.. but in vain.. we ended up waiting for so many people that took us about one and a half hour.. was feeling weird too.. ain't able to dine with them, my mom prepared dinner already.. so i being good, had to go home for dinner.. but i wanted to meet them again after dinner, but was rather tired and lazy.. (opps!).. anyway, hope you have enjoyed yourself!.. we shall meet up soon!..

-superstar matt-

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positive..
been really busy.. meeting up different groups of friends to chill.. though tiring, but enjoyed nonetheless..
the night seemed quiet today.. was kind of grounded.. i can't go out!.. reason being i haven't been home with my family for a long time.. miss my sty.. (haha!).. well, it's the holidays!.. i want to play!.. seems like i am "alone" at home.. not a big difference with me around..
it's andy's birthday tomorrow!.. and i totally have no idea what to get him.. well, i'll be meeting him tomorrow, will decide then!..
learning to be positive..

-superstar matt-

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perspectives..
haven't had the time to update my blog for the past few days.. well this, the latest update!.. i'm fine, really.. trying to take things by my stride.. learning to see things from different perspectives.. discovering the art of disregard..

many issues and problems occured to me the past week.. but i guess things seemed better since i learnt to see them with diverse angles..

i'm happy at where i am now.. moving on still..

this was on wednesday evening.. i was really cold!.. (big eyes.. pale face.. bursting bladder!..)

this was taken on saturday!.. was dining at marina square with my uncle!.. (see the result of sleepless nights..)

-superstar matt-

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deepest!..
overwhelmed!.. by the sort of words you use.. by the drastic change in attitude.. by the false accusations.. yes, i may not be perfect.. does it mean you don't trust me anymore?.. why are all these happening?!?!..
can i end everything here?.. i'm a failure, i admit to it!.. no one else can agree more..
just what is wrong?.. why is it that everything and everyone seemed to be against me?!?!.. is this my worst day?.. or is this just the beginning?.. i know many of you are laughing at my discomfort and situation right now.. but it's alright.. anyway, none of you cared!.. and i can boldly say that.. because if you did, you wouldn't have brushed against me and walked away without saying "hi".. if you did, you wouldn't have doubted my words.. if you did, you wouldn't have used those nasty words at me..
must i always resort to blogging to share my sorrows and deep thoughts?.. yes, i may enjoy writing and expressing myself.. but who are my real friends?.. where are they?.. do you still know me?.. do you still remember my name?..
i'm crying out loud this day.. drying up the waters under my eyes.. probably the deepest valley anyone could ever experience..

to #1: i don't know what you told everyone, especially him.. but if you really did bitch about me and said those nasty things, then i suggest you better admit it..

to #2: i don't know what made you doubt me.. i don't understand why you think this way.. i'm hurt.. yes, deeply!.. i thought i have made it clear to you, but you're doubting me again and again!.. was not my assurance strong enough?..

to everyone: you may or may not understand my post for the day.. but it doesn't matter.. if you love me,continue loving me.. if not, hate me for all i care.. i can do nothing.. perhaps, just perhaps..

-superstar matt-

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never..
a busy and tiring day for me.. went to a couple of places..
met weijie on my way home.. he was practicing dance with the rest earlier.. well, coincidental it was.. surprised i was..
had a filling dinner or rather, supper!..
pondering over many things tonight.. those should have never been..

-superstar matt-

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go..
your doubts leave me sleepless this night.. not knowing what to do next, i can only take a step at a time now.. perhaps, just perhaps..
i really feel like giving up.. after all that i have been through.. i don't want to hold on anymore.. just, just let me go!..
staring into the air.. trying to sleep..

-superstar matt-

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"full- filling"..
the event was cancelled today!.. well, that leaves me with more time for myself!.. i ate a lot today!.. had herbal chicken with rice, tahu telur- a malay delicacy, pulo hitam- a traditional chinese dessert.. i was so full!.. then went to visit my grandmother.. uncle and i went Mac'Donalds!!!.. i had some nuggets, Mac' wings and ice lemon tea (yes, i finished it this time!).. and sortly after my nap.. i had dinner!.. what a "full- filling" day!.. (ahaha!).. but i'm rather hungry now!.. (muahahaa!)..
oh!.. uncle gave me a thumb- drive!.. so happy!.. though it may not be something expensive but i am glad to receive it..
well, i was reading my friends' blogs earlier.. i feel so much for this friend of mine.. though we are not very close.. but i am sadden to have come across her story.. just want her to know that life is not all meaningless.. yes, we may have experienced setbacks and disappointments because people around us don't fulfill their responsibilities, but we should never give up on ourselves.. all the more you should prove yourself capable, and i know you are!.. press on my dear!.. be strong!..

the local kit-kat!.. (blur picture again!)..

-superstar matt-

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over..
exams are over!.. and i shall not tak about the details of the papers!.. horrendous it was!.. well, can finally take a deep breath and pat my own shoulder!.. i didn't sleep last night, was preparing for the economics paper.. and the end result, dark rings!.. i had a fun day out though.. missing the times already!..

vanessa and i in the examination hall after the paper.. look how tired we are.. the dark rings!.. i like her new hairstyle!..

-superstar matt-

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