YFriday, March 09, 2007
deepest!..
overwhelmed!.. by the sort of words you use.. by the drastic change in attitude.. by the false accusations.. yes, i may not be perfect.. does it mean you don't trust me anymore?.. why are all these happening?!?!..
can i end everything here?.. i'm a failure, i admit to it!.. no one else can agree more..
just what is wrong?.. why is it that everything and everyone seemed to be against me?!?!.. is this my worst day?.. or is this just the beginning?.. i know many of you are laughing at my discomfort and situation right now.. but it's alright.. anyway, none of you cared!.. and i can boldly say that.. because if you did, you wouldn't have brushed against me and walked away without saying "hi".. if you did, you wouldn't have doubted my words.. if you did, you wouldn't have used those nasty words at me..
must i always resort to blogging to share my sorrows and deep thoughts?.. yes, i may enjoy writing and expressing myself.. but who are my real friends?.. where are they?.. do you still know me?.. do you still remember my name?..
i'm crying out loud this day.. drying up the waters under my eyes.. probably the deepest valley anyone could ever experience..
to #1: i don't know what you told everyone, especially him.. but if you really did bitch about me and said those nasty things, then i suggest you better admit it..
to #2: i don't know what made you doubt me.. i don't understand why you think this way.. i'm hurt.. yes, deeply!.. i thought i have made it clear to you, but you're doubting me again and again!.. was not my assurance strong enough?..
to everyone: you may or may not understand my post for the day.. but it doesn't matter.. if you love me,continue loving me.. if not, hate me for all i care.. i can do nothing.. perhaps, just perhaps..
-superstar matt-
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